First vs Last year of Moeller
When I first came to Moeller, I was a completely different person than who I am today. I was excited and nervous about what was ahead of me. I was excited to meet new people and do new things, but I was also worried about the harder classes and workload. I also didn’t realize until senior year about how much I changed as a person for the better.
When I was a Freshman, I was excited and nervous about everything. I was excited for the homecoming, new clubs and activities, and the new people. I was also worried about who I was and my capabilities and how I compared myself to the other students. I was also sad about not playing any sports and when I heard some of the other freshmen were already playing varsity I felt like I was behind. I also felt behind by not taking AP classes and more honors classes. During this year I also didn’t have a good mindset, and I would stay up late on my phone and then be super tired and sleep during most of my classes. This caused me to get lower grades than I was capable of, and it hurt my mindset even more. I finished the year with A’s and b’s but 1 or 2 70’s and felt disappointed. During the summer I wasted it by just playing videogames the entire time and not trying to better myself.
At the start of senior year, I was excited and nervous. At the start of the year, I was taking tours and applying for colleges. I did fine on the ACT, but I was filled with regret from my previous years and what I didn’t accomplish. I was disappointed by not trying to do any sports, clubs, and taking harder classes. I was worried that I wouldn’t get into the colleges I wanted, but it turned out to be fine as I got into all the ones I applied for. Another thing I am disappointed about is not knowing what to major in. I think this came from the lack of effort from my previous years. At first, I wanted to be an engineer since grade school because it is what my mom is and I thought I could do it. I didn’t take the harder classes, and I wasn’t a super smart student and that changed my mindset on what I can do so I went in undecided. I hate that I don’t know what I want to do because at every family gathering my relatives ask what I want to do and I always have to hear the lack of enthusiasm and slight disappointment in their voices when they say I have time to figure it out. Nevertheless, I love senior year. This year has been one of my favorite years at Moeller and I like the classes I am taking. I am doing good with all A’s and a few B’s, and I have a completely different work ethic and mindset than I did freshman year.
The main thing that changed who I was, was sophomore year. This was the worst year for me because my work ethic and self-esteem were not the greatest. I have only gotten worse since freshman year and I hated it. I was angry and disappointed with who I was and that changed after the summer. During the summer, my parents made me get a job at Kings Island. I thought I would hate it because of my social anxiety and how quiet/reserved I was but that wasn’t the case. Working there caused me to be more confident and a harder worker. When I started junior year, I was a completely different person with a different mindset. I had much better grades and I was a happier person as well. I also had new responsibilities that challenged me to do better. I got my license and a car which gave me more freedom but also new responsibilities. I had to work to pay for it and it helped me change and develop into a better person.
As I look back on my time at Moeller, I still regret a few things. I regret not doing better in school in my earlier years. I regret not going to homecoming or prom, but I am also relieved because I would have been stressed out at those events. I also slightly regret not playing sports, but I am fine with that choice because I have been going to the gym to better myself that way. I learned that I am more capable than I thought and to not compare myself to others. I also learned to have more self-esteem and to believe in myself. I changed by becoming a harder worker, having more confidence, and a stronger person. I am happy with how I have changed and I look forward to how I will become in college.